Written by: By Mona Sen
Every day of living with multiple sclerosis (MS) is an eye-opener for me. It has been that way for many years — 32, to be precise.
My acceptance of disability came so long after my diagnosis with MS in 1986 that I sometimes wonder what ability — and not disability — really felt like. Quite honestly, I don’t know the difference, except on those rare occasions when I am seated comfortably outside, looking far into the landscape, and I vaguely remember walking.
Today, the difference between disability and ability can still seem murky, because disability can have its bad days, too. I know that disability is already challenging, but I now have to learn about disability sometimes being extra challenging.
I just didn’t expect to find disability, which is now my “normal,” to have challenges layered upon already existing challenges. I know how disability acts in my case — as I should, since it has been three decades. Disability is more a part of me than ability ever was.
If only things were consistent! But they are not. Just taking an extra step, for example, or an unintended walk, may interfere with my energy levels.
Paroxysmal Symptoms Confirm the Inconsistency of MS
Moments of Speechlessness Caused by MS
There Are Times When I Forget How to Walk
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